So I took a deep breath to send off a prayer - and before I could articulate my desire, the stress was gone. I was light as a happy cloud. I could feel pink, warm, comfy compassion swirling around me. It was kind of unnerving - mostly because I hadn't even "said" my prayer yet - so all the burden came back. I felt it physically settle back down onto me.
All of this, above, happened in what was probably 20 to 30 seconds, max, in "real" time - but it seemed to take much longer.
I tried again - I remembered that I'd just taken a deep breath when the freedom came - so I did that again. And it happened again. Then I tried to articulate some words in my mind, and the stress came back. So I just breathed again - freedom.
It was heavenly. It lasted for maybe 2 beautiful, happy, floating minutes. Then I had to come out of the bathroom and be with other people, and life of course came back.
But man. That 2 minutes was amazing.
Is this what you all aspire to, meditators? Someone tell me more, please.
'Cause I need a little piece .... whoa. I meant to write "peace" but the other word came out - wonder what that means? I need a piece of change? piece of heaven? a little corner of the sky?
I have a disabled husband. An amazing son who may need special ed services of some kind. I have so little money.
My shoulders are tired.
Maybe I'll get another 2 minutes of peace today.
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There are many form of meditation, but what you experienced is not unusual.
ReplyDeleteBased on this post, I would recommend doing metta meditation. And not doing it for anyone other than yourself, for a long time.